1st Dec'10
I wanted to write something on loneliness...not because I am lonely but yes I do sometimes feel lonely may be for a minute but I do feel lonely...I think everyone does at somepoint of time. My life was full of hussle & bussle....though not always but few months back....my profession was to be with people, speak to them, try to understand their problems and to solve them, recruit them..get them to new jobs, helping them getting accustomed to the new environment...that was really exciting.. like everyone I used to like my job at one point and hate it at other :)..I also had to help them leave the job, sometimes with notice sometimes without it..but then that was part and parcel of my job.
When I left my job, at first it was to get recovered from my illness but it was nice in the beginning..wow getting up at anytime...doing anything you like the entire day, but couldn't go out frequently since I had to take care of my health too..after all it was because of my health that I was at home. After I started recovering, it was time when my husband went out of the country for a important assignment...it was then that I realised the loneliness.
Before I got married, my friends & parents were my life and they were always with me, but after your marraige your priorities change and my life revolved around my husband and my job. Though sometimes he was out of town my job kept me busy and he was always there a phone call away. Now I was left with no job and husband very far from me though he was still a phone call away but the time difference was something that was bothering. I was with my family members, friends the same situation I had before I got married but I still felt lonely. I sometimes feel why do we get so attached to someone or for that matter to something that we cannot do without it ?
Loneliness is always there in your life in someway or other. I have now left my country to join my husband in the foreign land. I am glad to be with him. Again a new life...getting to understand the ways of the new country their folks, their way of life...exciting. I miss my country and my other family members there but am liking the new way of life too...I call it a new way of life because here am in a new role, a "housewife". I am enjoying my new role as there are many things I am doing for the first time. The weather suits my health too. There is loneliness here too...it never leaves you. I am alone the entire day, very far from my social network. I think thats the reason I am on the internet the enire day looking for someone whom I know is online so I can chat and exchange my ideas about my new life. Working in kitchen helps me a lot..I never knew that it would be refreshing :). When I am feeling dull, entering into the kitchen and trying out something new refreshes me.
So as I said loneliness will never leave you...you have to live with it and I think it is necessary sometimes in your life because it teaches you a lot of things, makes you understand a lot of things in your own life which you might have never realised. It's just that you should know how to handle it rather than getting deep into it and making it a disaster.
