Me

तुझ्या  पाठोपाठ  तुझ्या  जगात आले 
तुझ्या  विश्वातच  माझे  मन रमले 
तुझ्या  स्वप्नात स्वप्न रंगवू लागले 
ते खरे झाले तर , तुझ्या आनंदातच आनंद मानू लागले 


स्त्री म्हणून माझं हेच जीवन , असे  मी मानत नाही
पण ह्यात ही एक वेगळंच सुख आहे , हे  काय  मी जाणत  नाही ?

केली नोकरी , पैसे  कमावले 
काय होते ते  करियर बनवले ,
हे नेहमीच  असे  राहील 
असे मात्र  मनी नाही धरले 

नवीन देशात , नवीन राज्यात 
मी आले माझ्या घरात 
ते सजवताना , त्यात राहताना 
आठवते कधीतरी मात्र  मला , मीच , नोकरी करताना 

आयुष्यात सगळेच मिळत नाही ,
जे आहे ते ही काही वाईट नाही 
जेवढे आहे त्यातच सुख बघायचे 
देवाने आपल्यासाठी हेच आखले  असे  मानायचे 

खरे  जाणले तर , आपल्याकडे सगळेच आहे 
बस , 'काही अजून ' मिळाले तर जग  सुंदर  आहे 

भविष्याकडे वळताना , हे  'काही अजून ' मिळवताना 
आपण आपले आज गमावतो 
आताचा क्षण आताच जगायचा 
हे मात्र उशीरा समजतो.

Dreams Unlimited !!!

This is absolutely nothing to do with Shahrukh Khan. I know there are very few people who would read this and mostly all of them don't like Shahrukh Khan so they would not know that ' Dreamz Unlimited' was once a Production company shared by Shahrukh Khan, Juhi Chawla and Aziz Mirza. I think  it is dissolved now as I do not see any movies from the team now. I have nothing to do with it but just felt writing something on dreams.

Well, like all others even I dream and of course like others  sometimes expect it to be true. I always wonder how would it be when you actually experience something which you always  wanted to . It's a bliss sometimes and of course anything nice, rosy and beautiful comes with it's own challenges. That does not mean we should stop dreaming. Some dreams are good, I think they motivate you to live your life.  Just came across a beautiful saying by Dr.Abdul Kalam 'The Dream is not what you see in sleep,  dream is which does not let you sleep'. Depends on people, some dream, chase it and also achieve it. There are people who dream and try to chase it, try harder but at some point give up. They don't totally give it up, it's just that they think, may be that they are moving in a different direction. Now, again who is to decide this direction? Everyone has their own views and they think that they are correct, at least initially when they think about it. Such people, I think don't give up completely, rather they sit and wait for the correct time and chance or may be a golden opportunity. They are quite alert and then, one chance and they pounce on it and try to achieve as much as they can from the one they have got.

According to me it is very difficult to define the term "achieved" in terms of dream. People ask this question often, have you achieved your dream or may be something you want? Dreams are different from the actual wants the man has. A man has many wants varying from the daily ones to the ones he always has dreamt of. Wanting to eat something from a very long time, wanting to have enough quality time with the family, to earn a big fat salary and roam the world to name a few. I think everyone has some of these wants but their dreams are different. Going in one particular country or place you love and having your favorite dish in a restaurant there, be with your family and enjoy on a beautiful island with all the peace in the world around you, a big fat salary with full job satisfaction and roam the world with your loved ones. Who can roam the world alone and still enjoy it?

Dreams are never bad, those are nightmares :) I have some dreams which have come true, but then, when you get what you want, trust me it's very difficult maintaining that and keeping it with you forever. As I said, all beautiful things come with its own challenges. The God always showers his blessings upon us and then leaves us to find our own way to fight the hardships following it, teaching us in a way that nothing comes easy.

So I think the best thing is to keep dreaming and be positive in life...when you are strong and have faith in God...you can fight almost anything that comes your way. :)

Am I wrong???

I am sure a lot of people might get this question sometime or other, or sometimes everyday. Well, everyday seems a little unusual but if you think a lot  and would care you would surely get it everyday.:) I think a lot sometimes on some issues, but fail to get an answer to my question. Then I realised that thinking doesn't give you an answer to your questions. Then what? Retrospection? Does that help? I think to some extent that might help, that would help you rewind a lot of incidents in the past, but again the same question, whatever had happened that time, was it because of me ?

There are no answers to questions like these unless you find the subject of your act. You get this question usually when things go in a different direction from the one you wish. Now, who has to decide which is the right direction. We feel ofcourse the one we wish, but that's not always necessary. This question can arise for numerous reasons. Right from your 10th grade, I am starting from there because I think that is when you actually start caring for things around you. Your studies, your examinations, your grades, your decision of taking the future course of education, your career path, your friends and life partner, but things don't stop here. Infact it starts after you begin your life in a new phase, a family phase. You have to balance so many things. Your family, the new relations, your career, friends and so many other things.
Now so many things would increase our chances of going wrong some or other way. The catch here is the way you handle it. Trust me the most difficult thing is to maintain and handle the different relations, becasue they are so close to you and have no alternatives for them too. Other things are equally difficult to handle, like your profession, career, finances and future planning.

How do you handle the relations aspect here then? Communication? Ego? Well, the way communication can sort relations it can make it bitter too, especially communication with bad temper. Ego has to be ruled out in any relations, but that's not easy again. Misunderstandings, hurt, ego, bad temper,bitter or hard feelings spoil the very essence of any relationship. How far do you think you can carry these things with you? May be months, years..ages..Why can't we let it go? Twist our thinking and think in a total different direction. I think I am writing this because people around me and people in my life are very important to me. I can't stay alone. Infact no one can, even those who proudly claim that they can stay by themselves very happily. It depends on time they have spent like that. That's a kind of planning I would say, would sound a little harsh and wierd, but it's like banking on something. Today you might be very happy in your own world but there surely comes a time when  you need people around you for variety of reasons, in that case it's so difficult to start from scratch. Make new relations, enhance them and live with it.?..Or maintain the relations that you already have in addition to making new relations. This would help us always have people around us.

Man cannot stay in isolation for long..he is a social animal. I am not too sure what made me write this blog, but as I mentioned in my earlier blog, that writing here makes me understand few things and now I know that I need to keep in touch with my folks and friends...try to correct the misunderstandings if any, that is so important because it  brings me a sense of belongingness and ofcourse I would never know when I would need them:)






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Blogging

Well, I am not a celebrity, so there are very few people who follow my blog..and they were asking me as to why haven't I written a blog since last 2 months:)?. I think it would be great if I write blogs everyday, the way we write daily diaries. I used to write one when I was in college, it's fun reading it now. Writing a blog like that? Well, I am not too sure if I can publish all those details :). I think we should write diaries..and our feelings, you never know you would be famous one day and your diary would be published as your autobiography....LOL.Jokes apart, but I really think it's nice to write it that way. Many a times I am not too consistent with what all I follow. Sometimes I feel that it's a rule, and If I have to do it, I would rather prefer not doing it.

I know people like my father in law who writes his diary everyday before his dinner, and he follows it consistently. I admire him for that. People from that generation are so particular about anything..especially the consistency and regularity of things that they follow. He goes for his walk and exercise everyday early in the morning, like my dad who never fails to have his walk during the day. They know it is important, not because they are diabetic, but just because they also enjoy its regularity. They instantly miss the activity if they are unable to do it due to some reasons, and it's so obvious to people around them, that they are so used to their routine. I am consistent in being irregular too.

There is another side to being regular according to me. Things like your daily exercise routine....if it is not regular you would not find any difference of the exercise, so it becomes important after a course of time. Some of the routine activities, going to office,cooking, writing, studying :) and many more things can be very boring if they are too regular...I know it sounds weird but it depends on how you follow your routine. I think some activities need to be regular, but if they are carried with a little variation it's fun to have it in a regular schedule. Getting some new tasks at office, trying a new recipe your  loved one would like makes cooking special, studying something new everyday makes studying a pleasure.

Anyways blogging is never meant to be regular, but it's nice blogging once in a while and sometimes gives you pleasure, because while writing my blogs sometimes suggests something to change in myself too and converts me into a new person everytime.

Loneliness

1st Dec'10

I wanted to write something on loneliness...not because I am lonely but yes I do sometimes feel lonely may be for a minute but I do feel lonely...I think everyone does at somepoint of time. My life was full of hussle & bussle....though not always but few months back....my profession was to be with people, speak to them, try to understand their problems and to solve them, recruit them..get them to new jobs, helping them getting accustomed to the new environment...that was really exciting.. like everyone I used to like my job at one point and hate it at other :)..I also had to help them leave the job, sometimes with notice sometimes without it..but then that was part and parcel of my job.


When I left my job, at first it was to get recovered from my illness but it was nice in the beginning..wow getting up at anytime...doing anything you like the entire day, but couldn't go out frequently since I had to take care of my health too..after all it was because of my health that I was at home. After I started recovering, it was time when my husband went out of the country for a important assignment...it was then that I realised the loneliness.

Before I got married, my friends & parents were my life and they were always with me, but after your marraige your priorities change and my life revolved around my husband and my job. Though sometimes he was out of town my job kept me busy and he was always there a phone call away. Now I was left with no job and husband very far from me though he was still a phone call away but the time difference was something that was bothering. I was with my family members, friends the same situation I had before I got married but I still felt lonely. I sometimes feel why do we get so attached to someone or for that matter to something that we cannot do without it ?

Loneliness is always there in your life in someway or other. I have now left my country to join my husband in the foreign land. I am glad to be with him. Again a new life...getting to understand the ways of the new country their folks, their way of life...exciting. I miss my country and my other family members there but am liking the new way of life too...I call it a new way of life because here am in a new role, a "housewife". I am enjoying my new role as there are many things I am doing for the first time. The weather suits my health too. There is loneliness here too...it never leaves you. I am alone the entire day, very far from my social network. I think thats the reason I am on the internet the enire day looking for someone whom I know is online so I can chat and exchange my ideas about my new life. Working in kitchen helps me a lot..I never knew that it would be refreshing :). When I am feeling dull, entering into the kitchen and trying out something new refreshes me.

So as I said loneliness will never leave you...you have to live with it and I think it is necessary sometimes in your life because it teaches you a lot of things, makes you understand a lot of things in your own life which you might have never realised. It's just that you should know how to handle it rather than getting deep into it and making it a disaster.

New Beginning

30th Nov '10.

This is my first blog. I have been hearing people writing blogs, talking about that, controversies over the blogs and a lot more..have read few blogs which I like reading..like one of Amitabh Bachchans. Always wanted to write on many things but never tried blogging before.

I like reading Amitabh because I feel his life is very inspiring to I believe everyone...I had once read in a news paper about him and his thinking about life. He had mentioned that it is very difficult to accept things or happenings in life which you had not expected to happen..but then whatever happens is God's will and if we want the same thing we are happy and if not we are not. I don't remember the exact words but it was something like " Jo apni marzi ka nahi hota woh bhagwan ki marzi ka hota hai". And God would never will for something wrong, so accept it as it is and move on.

Its human tendency to believe something or someone who is established, successful and experienced. I am sure no one would get inspired with what I write and publish. Whenever you are going through bad times and if you watch someone who is going through worst and still positive inspires you to become more positive and accept what you already have and what you are suffering from because nothing is perfect. I am not writing this just for the sake but I have started believing this somewhere.

I am a patient of Multiple Sclerosis (MS). It was very difficult for me to accept the fact that it is incurable and that I have to stay with this the whole life. But then my condition is much better than a lot other patients who are suffering the same. There are very few Indians who have MS and I am one of them. So either I am one of the unfortunate ones or may be one of the fortunate ones. I dont know but then again thats God's will so  I have to accept this and move on. I never thought on this so strongly until the time came that I had to leave my job because of my health as it was getting too stressful. That was my first compromise, may be the first compromise in life. Now thats not bad :) no compromises in life till the age of 29.